Когда уже не помнишь точно
Иль предан ты, иль ты предал.
Когда приходишь в дом лишь ночью
И твердо знаешь - пусто там.

Когда уже никто не знает,
Что с этим делать, как с кем жить.
Когда лишь только кот играет.
Когда уже устал дружить.

Когда о стену безразличья,
Разбилось все, что ты ценил,
А то, что ценно для другого,
Не вдумываясь, ты разбил.

Когда уже никто не должен -
Ни ты ему, ни он тебе.
Когда уже не нужен повод
Ни для чего на всей земле.

Когда однажды понимаешь,
Что больше уж не сможешь так.
Когда хоть мелочь, но меняешь
Немедленно попав под танк

Несовпадения желаний
Иль времени подобных смен.
Ведь тот, другой хотел меняться
Совсем недавно - ты был нем.

Я не могу рыдать в подушку!
И я не буду горевать.
Уйду гулять, чтоб вновь вернувшись,
В квартире лишь кота застать.

Багира.

http://drevo.uaportal.com/object/1107798 or http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJPZ5xgpoWY (the same video)

I like drums.

Today we walked over the center of the Lviv with Natashka.

And met this band. Just in our city. Just on the street. And music was great, i was happy like an elephant.

These guys are amazing, i would like to see them again.

What i want to tell you about - it's a miracle. A girl. Her name is Iryna.
Dance, children, tenderness, beauty, stars, music, fire, love, all  - my words about her.
I lost her, she hidden out. But i have found. Far away. Just by the name. Found for a day, to talk, to express, to listen, to see and become happy. It's hard for girl to say no. It's hard to accept this and express yourself with the same afflatus.
And it's proud about such a people who can look to the eyes, understand, feel whole the world, and you, and smile, for you. I'm happy about.
Happy, that some people begat her and she grown up in our world which someone call bad. Happy that God begat people. Thank you.
Why i'm telling this to the public? Because i'm happy.  And wish you to be happy.

I developed this site in pair with Natashka. She created a design. EraSvit (Ера Свит) - is a traveling agency owned by Natashka's sister - Lariska :) Yes, this is an advertisement post :). But i invite you to Ukraine, Lviv, Karpathian and to our apartement personally. I would suggest Lariska to manage you journey here just because she is the proffesional, active, interesting and nice person :) Welcome!

We've been in Egypt. A company day, a holiday, a vacation, a summer  :) (i like winter, but nevertheless).
It was a rest. A very very very good rest. Crush.
It was a good company - i'm working at Edvantis about two years long and being unsociable in general i feel many people become my friends by this time.
Flying second time it's exciting still. Over the land, over the clouds, over the sea and the desert. Over the cities and rivers. This is cool, no fear.
What to do in the hotel?
Lying all the day at the beach or near the swimming pool is not interesting.. but not in the company. I was not lying near the swimming pool - i have seen a video of others. Jumping and swimming competitions, jokes, what ever.
We dived with a mask and flippers. Longer than ever because we've been on diving excursion and got experience to stabilize ear pressure underwater. Yeah, we've dived with scuba! Not so exited for me but nice and new impression.
There are a lot of fishes and corals in the Red Sea. Hm, we've been on the Red Sea, we've seen those fishes :)

We met Egyptians. No, they met us. Mostly to sell something :) Mostly men, because women do not work in general. This is not fear for us. us. But how interesting to see men - cooking, waiting upon, tidying up, selling in shops - women places in our life. Really.

I had my hair cut in Hurgada. And spoke with Barber about a hour. He did his job ten times better than, say, in Moscow.
And he let me pay as many (or as little) as i wish.  Now, i feel i paid him too little. More than i'm paing in Ukraine but...   The little nuance - i liked the result a lot. I enjoyed a process, a communication... If not - i could pay nothing.
In Moscow i paid three times more for the work i liked ten times less.

What i want to say.... - i like Egyptians. There are people trying to fool you. Well, i don't fear. I've been deceived a lot of times in Ukraine.. and most times it was my mistake as well. No, no. I would fight with those people, i hate them. but i can just prevent this. Just think, just feel, just look for people who do not fool.  And there are a lot. In Ukraine and Egypt and whenever else. I believe this.


At the nights i came to discotheque.  Every night. From the start to the end.
I like dancing, really. Being a little boy, i did not want to dance because thought this is not for a man. But no, i was too lazy to learn dancing, to shake, to move, to think of beautiful moments of quick touches, looks, feels, sounds.
I used to afraid so much, i become unsocial man, single. And people thought that i don't like that all.
But i like. I like communication. I like new people. I like to drink when i feel this is a good tradition, i like to smoke, when i need to wait.  To wait a girl who smokes as well, to invite her for the dance. No more.

I did dancing on the birthday parties, weddings what ever. But not on disco.
But not this time. Why?

Hard to say. All my life i'm trying not to afraid. Not to afraid to lost money, not to afraid to be blamed, not to afraid to look strange. Not to afraid to do what you like. That was the week when i did not afraid to dance.
There was a girl who i like. Just like. And it was great to dance near her. She did not know this, did not see this. Unfortunately.

What the girl? Are you married?
I used to be. I divorced.
Why?
Hard do say shortly. It was my decision - stupid, self-loving, egoistic man - that i'm trying to disprove.
I like Natashka. We are living together until i find own apartment.
But i think we should go separate ways.